It's my birthday in less than a month. I will not be fat on my 20th birthday

O.k so I know I'm totally the girl who cried wolf ( perhaps this is the wrong analogy) But I plan to jump back on board tomorrow. its currently just past 9pm here and I've taken 3 laxitives after a very indulgent weekend.

Can anyone give me ANY tips on how to contain myself around boyfriends and friends? does anyone else eat more when they are with their boyfriend? I do.

Hope to hear from you all

I'm baaaaack






Honestly girls, no more distractions

Hi everyone,
Sorry I havnt been around much, well I have been around but I've been eating HEAPS well not heaps but just not healthily and I'd rather not report it. I've been fluctuating from 65.6- 66.5ish so I'm not too dissapointed. On Monday I'm going skiing for a week but after that I'll be back in full swing. You may wonder why I dont take the oppurtunity to starve every fat cell off my body, but I'm going with my boyfriend... Small goal for the week: Don't drink too many hot chocolates and fall into the hot chip trap. Wish me luck.. See you next week
Love you all, hope your all doing well

Hi lovelies,
I arrived home on Friday feeling like a fat pig and weighing in at 66kg. I was fairly happy actually. I realize my weight loss is slow and tedious but I will get there! So I never considered myself an emotional eater but after my grandfather's death I certainly become one. Every thought of him, lying there, dead (btw, I saw him to say 'goodbye' defiantly do not recommend it i can't get the picture out of my head) or 6ft under made me consume enough food to feed a small African village. Before I left for my trip, I ashamed to admit I gained and was close 68 kg. I was only slightly disappointed because I had been at 65.5 due to the fast but wanting to be thin was overridden by greif and wanting to spend time with my family. So now, I'm 66kg and I'm determined to get back on track, I'm excited even.
Hope your all doing well
Love x

After a shower tonight I weighed in at 65.6! I'm so happy I'm sure to see 65 by friday!! I do however have a problem to share with you. As you all know I've been on the master cleanse, however I havnt been having the daily recommened amount.I'm meant to have 6-8 glasses and I've been having 4, max! Tonight I had the worst headache and pms pain and I was hungry so I have a banana smoothie (soymilk, banana, yoghurt, ice) I feel alot better and it was 250ml glass... Have I fucked everything up? I know I defiantly have by the master cleanse standards, althought they do allow you to eat fruit if you absolutly need it, I don't know how beyonce would feel about yoghurt.. What do you guys think, be honest, what do you have when you fast?