On a scale of size zero to fat, last night I was obese. Now I dont need to go into details but as I write this I'm dusting off my knees and getting back on my horse. We shall never speak of this again.

I'm such a bloody failure!!

So yesterday started off really well...
I've started working at a child care center and in the morning I went to the gym and went on the cross trainer for 30 mins then the stepper for 20 mins. Which I thought was a good effort as I havnt been to the gym in about a month!! how ferel is that?!

Anyway, Yesterday I ate a porridge sachet, a cup a soup and a fruit salad( probabaly onlt 500 cal all up..?). I had planned on going home before going to my boyfriends at night so I could get away without eating dinner but he needed me to pick him up straight after work and I was so bloody hungry and headachy I ate a WHOLE BOWEL OF PASTA. Argh!! I'm so mad at myself!
Then this morning I made us toast so I had 4 peices of toast too. So first 2 days have gone well. not. But I promose to make up for it the rest of the week.

Tonight I'm going to a spin class and I'm working for the rest of the week and I plan to go to gym as often as I can..
However, Tomorrow night my boyfrind is hosting a bbq with on other couple so I need any tips possible to help me get through it. Even if I eat perhaps I should take some back- up laxitives? Help me girlies :(

Anyway, hope your all doing better than I am. Oh btw I'm 66.7, well I was yesterday morning :|

It's my birthday in less than a month. I will not be fat on my 20th birthday

O.k so I know I'm totally the girl who cried wolf ( perhaps this is the wrong analogy) But I plan to jump back on board tomorrow. its currently just past 9pm here and I've taken 3 laxitives after a very indulgent weekend.

Can anyone give me ANY tips on how to contain myself around boyfriends and friends? does anyone else eat more when they are with their boyfriend? I do.

Hope to hear from you all

I'm baaaaack






Honestly girls, no more distractions

Hi everyone,
Sorry I havnt been around much, well I have been around but I've been eating HEAPS well not heaps but just not healthily and I'd rather not report it. I've been fluctuating from 65.6- 66.5ish so I'm not too dissapointed. On Monday I'm going skiing for a week but after that I'll be back in full swing. You may wonder why I dont take the oppurtunity to starve every fat cell off my body, but I'm going with my boyfriend... Small goal for the week: Don't drink too many hot chocolates and fall into the hot chip trap. Wish me luck.. See you next week
Love you all, hope your all doing well