Who needs a University Degree..

Good morning girls!

I took 3 laxitive last night and woke at 5am with horrible stomach cramps, and well not a whole lot came out, I suppose that means there isnt much to come out...

Anyway This morning I did the salt water flush. And it is defiantly a FLUSH. I could only take approx 2 glasses because it is discusting! 15-20 mins later it all...flushed out the other end, Kind like what one I would imagine those things that go up your bum would do. (ok I'm sorry this is so gross)

I'm fairly confident for today. Its only 10.15am but I think tomorrow will be the hard day and then easy from there

Oh and I weighed in at 66.3kgs this morning. Though I know its ALL water weight it's still exciting.. I'm sure I'll do a handful of posts today considering I'm home all day studying (I'm not risking going out in public after the salt water flush)

Speak soon. Good luck to all you fasters- I defiantly recommend taking laxitives or drink laxitive tea so you don't get clogged up that hurts alot more than the discomfort laxitives bring :(

EDIT: It is now 2pm and after a rather personal attack in the downstairs region- which I will not gross out out with too much detail, I'm settling into my first glass of 'cordial' (honey, lemon, water an cayenne pepper) It tastes delicious today! I could easily drink alot of it- I must have done something different to yesterday- its so yummy! I've been told that Whilst on this diet you should experiance 4-6 bowl movements a day so if your going to do it make sure its a week when you dont need to leave the house. i.e I'am studying today so it works out well.... On another note, I think I liked the feeling the salt water flush gave me, might do another one of thursday...I'm a sick human being...

GOOD LUCK & LOVE TO ALL MY FOLLOWERS!!

It's 7.30pm here, my first day is almost complete! I feel great! I barely even got hungry. I didn't feel sluggish, I was a little grumpy in the afternoon though. So far I've only had 3 drinks and one hot water with lemon juice and honey.

The drink actually isnt too bad. It consists of water, cayenne, lemon and honey or your meant to use mapel syrup but we don't have any...I found of a few websites that its ok to use honey, but it just has more sugar in it :| nevermind.
I can stomach the first 300ml but after that it gets pretty bad...the things we put up with! I would totally reccomend this drink to you fasting girls, it helps me feel full.

I went and bought some sea salt today, because, well tomorrow I have to do a sea salt cleanse. For anyone who doesnt know what that is its a wash and I think it helps everything pass through your body very quickly. apparently within 30-60 mins you should have bowel movements. I'm terrified. It's basically warm water and salt. YUK! Has anyone else done this? I've been told its very unpleasant.

I havnt managed to get any laxitive tea (can anyone tell me where to get it) but I guess laxitives work just as well? and they're cheaper!

Mum made me eat tonight. I didn't do it. she gave me a sweet potato because I told her I was on a detox but she said because I was studying I had to eat. No mum I don't have it eat. But anyway, I took it to my room, chopped it up and flushed it down the toilet. This is the ONLY week I can do it. I'm actually so proud of myself. they were having curry for dinner, which just didnt seem right considering I will be eating the real deal curries in 1.5 weeks. She wants me to have a protein shake before bed, that can't be too bad, if I actually have to go through with it.

So I only got 3 and a half smilies today so far. I'll try and stomach another concuction before bed, but they way I see it is the less I drink the less calories? hmm..

I'm excited for a new day tomorrow. We can do this!!

Some appropriate thinspo: Miss Sri Lanka: Jacequline Fernandez and Frida Pinto.

Good morning girls! anyone?
One one person speaks to me!! well a few more but only one regularly so thank-you V- a new follower.
As you can read I'm starting my master cleanse today. I stayed up last night squeezing at least a few days worth of lemons (about 20!)

I've started a diary to keep me motivated. here I have listed a few reasons as to why I need to do it. 1. is that the master cleanse is actually not a weight loss cleanse but it does help. 2. I want to do a fast but this will give me more everygy than straight water and its easier to explain to mum that it's a 'detox' rather than a fast. 3. I want to look hot and slim and feel good on the inside too.

Then I listed a few reasons to not give up: 1. I won't have to worry about my body when I'm naked in front of my boyfriend. 2. This week is possibly the hardest week (body wise) to start a fast (due to exams & I stat my period)and if I can do it this week I can do it any week. But actually this is the best week to do it because I won't feel too guilty about not going to the gym as much and I will be home all week, only to leave the house for exams and exercise.3. I should reach my first goal weight (65)4. Food will still be there when you finish 5. Some people fast for weeks, months and even years, you can last 10 days...

I'm just going to take each day as it comes. Today has started pretty well, I took 3 laxitives last night in preparation and woke up with obvious stomach cramps that ended erm shortly after visiting the bathroom.

So, time to have my first concuction. I aim to have a minimum of 6 a day and I pop a smiley face sticker (hehe) in my diary everytime I have a glass "cheers!"

So starting weight: 67.1 (yay my lowest yet)

Good luck to all you other fasters I will be thinking of you :)


Oh, I have another issue to. I told you guys that I would only do it for 5 days but now I'm considering 7- 10 days. However, I have an issue. I have to eat on friday and saturday nights at my boyfriends, but I've heard it will actually make me sick if I do.. I considered just going after dinner which would work I guess. But if I got for 10 days which will take me to the end of my exam period I have to just drink o.j for two days and by the end of my exam period I will be spending everyday/ night with my boyfriend because I will be going away 3 days after. Argh!!If I put the weight back on I'll be so angry. Hopefully I can get away with just eating soup for lunch and maybe a dry piece of toast. I had considered just telling my boyfriend but he would get so angry at me :(

Look forward to hearing from you!

The last supper was scrambled eggs on toast, just what I wanted after 8 hours of studying at a gross 70's decor library.

I checked to make sure I had all the ingredients. I'm ready.
I'm sorry I couldnt join the Hungry for a Change. I doubt I could deal the humilation of dropping out well before everyone else, this way I can still eat a little (only fruit)
I've found heaps of other forums for people who have tried this fast and said it works, I'm a little worried that my 5 days wont have much effect, but i'm taking baby steps. If i get to friday and I feel awesome I'll keep going till the following tuesday. I'll be made to eat on friday and saturday nights though due to boyfriend. What do you guys think about a video diary? I thought it could perhaps keep me a little more motivated...

I'm so excited for you hungry for a change girls. I know your all going to do so well! and well maybe in a couple of months I'll be able to join.

For now I'm off for tea,a shower and an early night's sleep. Goodnight!

On a study break so just a quick post... Good luck to all you girls fasting this week!

I'm seriously considering trying this: The 'beyonce diet' or so I asked mr google...

http://weight-loss.families.com/blog/beyonces-maple-syrup-diet

Has anyone tried this?
Seems to have worked, apparently Naomi Campbell does it aswell...

I might start it tomorrow but for only 5 days. I just found out I'm going to Sri Lanka next week so it seems that my bikini body needs to be up to scratch earlier than I thought. It's not that I care what the Sri lankians think of my body its more than I want beautiful beach photos to look back at and not look like a beached whale!!

Let me know your thoughts!
Maybe not a great idea considering I have 3 exams this week, but if I can do it I will.

ALSO I want to hear if you have been to Sri Lanka, where is a cool place to visit etc etc

If I do this 'detox' I will start tomorrow and finish Friday night, anyone and everyone is welcome to join. Its 5 days! Let me know!! and be realistic, we all know I'm not the best dieter...

Sooo, after barfing up everything I've eaten this evening I've made myself a little motivator... If I don't eat too much I don't have to barf. Hm yes why didnt I think of that before... :|
Sorry for running your dashboards into overdrive I'm in swotvac...

Here is some lovely swimsuit thinspiration..
enjoy :)

Hi girlies,
Today has been o.k. I'm not too depressed, 1 whole egg, 1.5 peices of fruit toast and a tub of yoghurt. I went to the gym and ran for 20 mins and cross trainer for 20 mins. I ad planned to go back but mum and I went shopping this arvo and I'm exhausted, I might go for a walk instead...I'm going to have a bit of gnocci for dinner, I've been craving it and if I dont have it I know I'm turn into a raging bitch until I do, so I'll only have a little, yep I know I'm weak.

I found the 20 mins on the tredmill SO hard, harder than ever, if anyone has any tips they would be greatly appreciated. I use to do 1/2 hr so I'm only getting worse.

I think there are bugs in my bed I have these bites also over my body :S
I had a painful coffeedate with my two 'bestfriends'. Well one I actually love to death, the other I can barely stand these days... she always acts like such a victim so bloody annoying. If only you knew- my boyfriend can't stand her. Anyway, My friend that I adore said I looked like I had lost heaps of weight from my face and legs so I guess that was a little self esteem boost. I only ate the toast so they wouldnt get sus, but I guess its not too bad :|

Hope your all doing well!



( I wish my upper arms were as skinny as my forearms. booo)

Fuck you you fat piece of lard. seriously. I hate my fucking body. and I hate swearing but this is it I'm so over it. I hate my flabby arms and my fugly stomach which I refuse to let my boyfriend touch anymore..
I'm over my boyfriend fucking watching everything I eat. Whilst he gets away with a coffee for breakfast I HAVE to have toast or cereal, and I have to pick ONE. and because I lack self control when I got home I had a peice of bread and some bread and butter pudding whch was promptly thrown up... Why do I eat if I know I'm just going to spew it up again... On top of that I didnt get to go to the gym last night because my mother wanted to spend time with me and I'm a sucker for spending time with my mother, is that weird?
I will go tonight and I will work my arse off and I will not eat anything afterwards, i will wake up in the morning and I will go to the gym again and I will go to coffee with friends and I will not eat anything. I hate studying too I lack self control in every single area of my life... O.k so theres my little self pity rant, Speak soon.. Hope your all doing better than me, not hard to but yer..

On another note, I seriously recommend signing your email up to as many fashion newsletters and e-boutiques as possible..its like daily thinspo and fashion inspiration right into your inbox , double whammy...Here are a few of my faves... (Am i going to get into trouble for this? I'm sure RZ wouldnt mind ;)hehe)

IN:
B: Orange
L: 3 seaweed crackers + Coke zero
its only 2.20pm here so I'll probabaly end up having an apple this arvo and ratatoulle for dinner- yum,yum (I also recommend making up a big big pot of this, it lasts like 1.5 weeks and its just veggies!)

OUT:
40 mins of cross training, and I plan to go back to the gym for a run and stepper time. Better get back to study...

I'm actually pretty proud of yesterday's efforts.
After Zumba I went to my boyfriends house and he made me a hot choc which would have been 100 cal max, and I went to bed hungry. I felt fantastic, in control.

I'll be happy if my day is similar to yesterdays. I just got home from my boyfriends and I'm still sleepy so I'm going to have a nap do some exercise, study study study more exercise study sleep. and I guess I'll eat similarly to yesterday, I'll try to not eat those damned seaweed crackers, put they cant be too bad if i keep the portions small :|. I know it seems like a lot to some of you but even after 2 months of being here I'm still trying to figure out whats best for me. P.s Zumba was fun! and I'm actually pretty sore. I look forward to hearing from you...

In:
A boiled egg, 1 banana, 1 orange, 1 apple, 1 green tea w/ mint, popcorn, 10 seaweed crackers & ratatouille

Out:
1/2 hr walk, 15 min run (I'm getting worse), 50 mins in sauna (??) and I'm about to go to a Zumba class... I've really been slacking off lately with my exercise I just cant run for 1/2 hour like I use to be able to do... Can anyone help me? I'm rather happy with my intake but I think tomorrow I will avoid the seaweed crackers and popcorn, what do you think?

Here is some lovely K. Moss Thinspo, I think this is the best picture of her.
The other is a friend of mine, she is beautiful, thin, gracious, perfect. I'm so jelous of her. We are going running on sunday night. She eats everthing, but never much. I have kind thought for a while now that shes got an ED but I'm not sure. Mainly because I've never heard her talk about food the way she does now. But wouldnt you just kill for her stomach... Yes I stood next to her on this day at the beach looking like a fat whale...
Hope to hear from a few of you!

-High Calorie Warning-

I've eaten heathily today but gosh it adds up!

B: Oats+ milk= 150 cal
L: banana= 122
S: Apple= 106, 40 gm of popcorn= 138, almonds x 15= 179 (!!!)

I havnt even eaten dinner yet... but i plan to eat some ratatouille, which is just vegetables and is about 200 calories...

So that brings me to a grand total of 895...

I'm going to do a spin class too which should burn about 500 calories, and i know if i say i wont eat dinner I will after all that exercise...then I'll feel like I've let you all down...

Also, I thought some of you may be interested in this: http://www.calorieking.com.au/tools/exercise_time.php

I just found it, pretty cool huh

Wow.. has it really been almost a week since i last posted?
I've been ok this week, I've remained under 68...(67.4 to be exact) so not a loss to brag about but at least i didnt gain which doesnt really make sense considering the amount I've eaten..

Decided to take some advice from a good friend ;) (laurz) and stop my nibbling and hopefully I can loose another kilo this week.
I know I'm not as decidcated as you beauties but this weekend I actually had alot of unavoidable social situations e.g. my grandads 90th! I wore my pencil skirt and body suit nd i got alot of comments so that boosted the self esteem a bit...!

This week I'm off uni for a study break (my exams start on the 31st and i havnt even thought about studying!)
I'm going to go to gym in he morning and at night and in between the days I will nap, walk and study...
Can someone give me some advice of dieting whilst studying? I will be home all day, maybe I should go to a library to stop me going to the fridge? But I like studying at home... decisions, decisions... any advice would be greatly appreciated!

I'm terribly sorry I havnt been commenting on anyone else's blogs these past couple of days have been super busy, but needless to say I' am back on track! I know I've said that alot but I'am.. I'm ready for control.. ready for the pants dents on my stomach to dissapear!

The end of a busy busy day!
Today I awoke at my boyfriends, drove him to uni then went home..
I had porridge for breakfast
and small nibbles of what my mum had for lunch...
So I think about 500 cals.
Except I think I better stop nibbling, I'm going to loose track..

I washed my car today for the first time since I got my lisence last November! Hopefully next time I wash it I will look like Jessica Simpson cira Daisy Dukes days! WOW!! she is a true thinspiration, too bad shes let herself go...

A friend came over this afternoon which also kept me for gorging..

I went for a 20 min run this morning at the gym and did a 45 min spin class tonight so i feel good. I just hope I have the strength to not eat dinner just drink heaps of tea, water and maybe treat myself a low calorie hot choc (45 cal). Gotta fit into a pencil skirt this weekend!

Does anyone feel like they've failed when noone comments on their weight loss?

On another note, my boyfriend says I've changed and that I've turned into a bitch and I think its because of the dieting. Its so weird I thought I would be able to control it but apparently I can't..


How are YOU?

Today was great.
I got my hair done this morning, then mum took me shopping. I got a new blazer and a pencil skirt. Unfortunately I was obviously unable to make these thispiration clothes as they are for next saturday and mum would have told me to stop being stupid.
Anyway, my mum and dad said I had defiantly lost weight and my boyfriend said my ribs were sticking out too much, I pretended to be discusted but one the inside I was similing.
To this day I'm at 67.5kgs I realise I'm not loosing weight as quickly as some of you or as quickly as I'd like to but hey, dieting is not easy. I think we forget that sometimes, but truth is that if it were easy everyone would be slim, right?

Hopefully you'll still all support me despite my petty efforts...

I was reading a magazine last night and I found some great tips, it was an article about people who are finding it hard to loose weight because of particular foods they eat. Sorry, I know some of you have a heap of self control but I dont so you have to read it anyway

Cheese: A common trap, eating 1/2 a wheel of brie over wine with friends equates to 1439 kg, and that doesnt even included the crackers or wine!
think of it as: a 40 min circuit class at the gym.

white bread: toasting thick slices of turkish bread for breakfat equates to 913 kj or 20 minuets of high intensity boxing.

Lollies: eating half a packet of snakes equates to 1380
Think of it as: 50 min cross country hike

Alcohol: 'accidently' drinking a bottle of champagne when out with your girl friends equates to 2219kg
think of it as: 85 mins of the stair climber (!!!) OR for every 100ml glass of champagne of wine you drink equates to 20 mins on the tredmill.

CHOCOLATE: 1/2 a block of chocolate equates to 2230kgs or 70 mins of the rowing machine

its fucked, right? I hope that all made sense to you...I could be bother converting the kjs to calories. Stupid australian magazine.. why cant we be like the other half of the world...

I didnt count calories today but i was out with mum and could avoid 1/2 a salmon sandwhich and sushi for dinner, but at least its healthy and i suppose i would have still been less that 1000 cals... I also ran for 20 mins at the gym and did the stair climber for 20 mins...sooo sweaty

Hope your all doing well :)

The past two nights I've skipped dinner. I never though I would be able to do it...skip a meal. I think it helped a bit. I felt so in control. I think I might try it more often. However, I didnt go to gym on those days. I was actualy very busy with mum and uni work. I didnt eat alot during the day but i havnt been limiting what i eat just my portions. tiny tiny bites of cakes and then put it down. I felt so in control...Tonight was a differnt story mum shoved a delicious curry in my face before I could say 'I'm not hungry'. Really need to be more insistant! I did attempt to bing it up, i've actually been doing alot more of it lately, I don't like it, I feel bad but i feel bad if i don't..I can't win! I went to the gym today and spend 20 mins on the cross training and 20 mins of jogging...
so tonight was a bit of a downer but I have a plan for tomorrow... I will be at my boyfriends house for lunch and dinner... He does not take no for an answer but I've decided I'm going to take my own meals. They eat junk on Friday's anyway, Sooo I'm going to take tomato soup (maybe some rice thins because he wont accept just soup, well he didnt the other day...)and a weight watchers/ lite and easy meal. I'm going to go to the gym in the morning and do as much cardio as I can stand. I hope I'm sucessful...
I'm so sorry I'm not more thinspiring for you guys but I'm defiantly feeling alot more motivated!!!

Anyone seen Australian Vogue this month? (Probabaly not? I think the only people that comment this are from overseas) Samantha Harris is AH-mazing!!

Today was ok, I looked after mum and we watched julie and julia. Not the best movie to watch when your dieting it seriosly made me recosider turning my diet blog into a foodies blog, but I'm still here and not matter how hard I try and convince myself I love food and my body shape doesnt matter, the desire to be thin will always..win.
So I'm fairly certain i stayed below 1000 calories today. I still wont tell you what i eat cause lets just say it involved alot of ciabtta. I dont know why bread id getting the better of me lately. But, tomorrow I shall be bread free.
I know to some of you that seems huge but I'm working on it, as you can see from my last posts staying below 600 cals just made me binge on the weekends. fatass.

Last night didnt end up at great as i wanted it to be. It was asian food and I'm sure some of you may know its hard to watch the portions when your bowl is constantly being piled with food. I made sure not to eat thing i really didnt find enjoyable.

I just got back from the gym. I was feeling pretty lousy this afternoon. I though I had done pretty well in one of my essays and I asked mum to proof read it and she didnt like it. sigh... I did 20 mins on the cross trainer and 20 mins on the tredmil so i guess i burnt about 450 cal. I aim to visit the gym twice tomorrow.

I'm actually really not a smart person. My whole like mum has told me that I had "better marry rich" because apparently I'll never be able to afford my lifestyle. So it kinda sucks that I need help with every bit of academia ( off to the boyfriends house tomorrow for accounting & statistics help) It would really mean alot to my if I could finally reach my goal weight. I know I'm not doing half as well as alot of you but maybe slow and steady wins the race?... ah screw that I WANNA BE SKINNY NOW!!

I know my stomach photos are a little over due now, I was doing to post some last week but to be honest I dont think there is a alot of change ( and i was pmsing) So I'll try and put some up soon.

Can't wait to hear from you all!

The last pic is actially just a bit too skinny for me, but I just thought she looked really elegant and graceful. Something I'll never be which was evident this evening when I fell off my crosstrainer into the man next to me. he wasnt even hot.

Hey girls,
Over the past week I've been fluctuating from 67 to 69 which doesnt depress me too much, just confusing. Hopefully over the next few weeks I can start fluctuating from 65 to 67!!

The past couple of days have been busy and I've been naughty and not counting calories and I'm positive for the new week.

Tonight I'm going for dinner at my grandma's Im really going to try and watch my portions, it'll be good practice. Besides my cousin is like walking thinspo and were blood related so it will give me some indication of what my body will be like when im thin. My cousin and I get along really well and she never use to be this thin, not that she was ever fat just maybe musclier? she did alot of rowing in high school so i guess she bulked up a bit from that. Perhaps I'll try and weed some tips from her, though she always seems to eat like a normal person... shes only 11 months younger than me and i cant stand she hasnt fallen into the 'freshman 15' weight range, hmph.
maybe I can try and get a picture of her tonight to post lol kinda creepy but thinspiring...
Speak soon

So I think I have a body disformic(?) issue. Not the one your thinking of.
scenario no. 1.
I get read for a party, best clothes, hair and make up done etc etc. Looking at myself and I think yes you scrub up quite nicely. Then I see a photo from that night and i have fat thighs, discusting pale face, ferel hair etc etc

scenario no. 2.
Gettin nakey for the shower and I look at myself in the mirror. Your stomach is looking rather flat today, better take a pic to post of my blog to show the girls *takes picture* is that beached whale me? yep.

What the hell.

Study has been going o.k. One assignment is out of the way and 2 more are due tomorrow ones almost finished and ones 1/2 finished.
I'll be so happy once its all over and I can get back to the gym (I havnt been sinces tues, i think)
I'm going to had to workout like a maniac.

Today was pretty similar to yesterday until about 5pm where i had curry, then hot chips then some chocolate yes i guess you could call it a binge, but i didnt feel full. Anyway, I ended up throwing it up (and loosing 900gm in the process) I'm sorry I know that upsets some of you but when its like that I feel that its necessary.
Anyway these assignments arnt going to finish themselves, sorry for a boring post...
P.s. mum had her operation today and shes fine

Good Intake I think...

B: porridge w/ soy
L vita- weats
S apple + coke zero + low cal hot choc made w/ water
D curry

I'm going to say it was roughly 700 cal thought it may have indeed been less. I guess it could have also been more.. my brain has stopped functioning tonight.

I went for a run this morning, well I tried. I was running and then i got the worst pain near my heart and also in my stomach. So I only made 2.5km :( and i didnt go back cause I've been SUPER busy with uni assignments. hence low intake. don't think i'll see such low number for a while, but I'll try :) I was meant to get my period yesterday and so far I've only been extremely erm... 'gassy'... though I think that may have just been something to do with what i ate over the weekend cause its been like this since last friday. VERY embaressing.

Well anyway, I hope your all doing well. My life is VERY boring at the moment so apologies..

Following on from my last post thought it was necessary to post some pictures of charlize.. (yes Im getting very lazy with my posts..)

Today has been o.k....Uni work is very daunting so I'm posting very quickly today.
I'm doing an assignment on premium brands surviving the recession so I'm research them and their advertising campaigns with are obviosuly exteremly thinspiring...






Obviosuly my fave (george michael and claudz= hothothot!!)




and the MEN are so gorgeous!!!



B: Museli Bar
L: 1 1/2 pieces of toast with butter and cheese (oops)
S: low cal hot choc
D: a slice of chicken meatload small green salad and 1/2 a sweet potato.

I know its bad. I really need to develop some of my old habits but sometimes im just like fuck it this is not going away...

Exercise: 1/2 hour of running and went back to do only 1/2 hour of cros trainer. Also bad but my friend made me feel guilty about not studying for the test i have tomorrow...
I feel so fucking fat. this FAT is NOT leaving. Your all getting so skinny and your going to leave me in fatville.

I just had a glass of milk to resist a binge.
When I was skinny I never counted calories. It never occured to me, I think I thought it was too difficult. Here is a typical day of what i use to eat/do:
Run in the morning (I loved it, couldnt get enough of it)
B: HUGE bowel of cereal
L: Apple and maybe a can of pepsi max
D:small tuna salad
Gym. (20 min run, 20 min cross trainer, 20 min bike, 10 min stepper)
and i would walk to and from school and walk to work.
I wish I could develop these habits again, maybe I will soon. I would cry at night because I would get so frustrated that I could sleep so sometimes mum made me cinnamon toast and of course i hated that i ate it but whatever. I wish mum would even want to make me cinnamon toast, now all she does is tell me to stop eating!

Honestly girls, all i do is fucking whinge, I need to start taking some serious action.

Hi gals
I'm on my blackberry today so no thinspo, again. This weekend has been bad. Very bad.
I had a dinner parrty last night and I made sure not to finish more than a half on my meal.
I did eat a lot before the meal though so I guess it doesn't really count. My boyfriend and I fought all last night again, and made up this morning, but I'm SO tiredn, which has resultesd in poor food choices today. I feel like I'm not very thinspiring lately, I'm sorry. I feel like I take 2 steps foward and one step back.
This week is really bad, I've got 3 assignments due and my mums going into hospital on thursday. I know its not a bit deal because she's only having elective surgery but it still upsets me. I know she's upset by it. When she told me she was practically crying. She's actually quite old. She had me when she's was 41 and now she's 60 and I think it gets to her often which in turn gets to me.
Anyway, she's strong but she'll still be in recovery at home for like 6 weeks. Poor woman will go insane.

I really wish I was more organised. 3 assingments to start and finish by the end of this week.
Ill try and make what time I have for at the gym really count.
Hope your all doing well. Ill start counting calories again a.sap.
I'm really sorry I've been so horrible.
Hopefully I can't figure out how to use this darn phone to check out all your blogs :)