Thursday, May 6, 2010

So I think I have a body disformic(?) issue. Not the one your thinking of.
scenario no. 1.
I get read for a party, best clothes, hair and make up done etc etc. Looking at myself and I think yes you scrub up quite nicely. Then I see a photo from that night and i have fat thighs, discusting pale face, ferel hair etc etc

scenario no. 2.
Gettin nakey for the shower and I look at myself in the mirror. Your stomach is looking rather flat today, better take a pic to post of my blog to show the girls *takes picture* is that beached whale me? yep.

What the hell.

Study has been going o.k. One assignment is out of the way and 2 more are due tomorrow ones almost finished and ones 1/2 finished.
I'll be so happy once its all over and I can get back to the gym (I havnt been sinces tues, i think)
I'm going to had to workout like a maniac.

Today was pretty similar to yesterday until about 5pm where i had curry, then hot chips then some chocolate yes i guess you could call it a binge, but i didnt feel full. Anyway, I ended up throwing it up (and loosing 900gm in the process) I'm sorry I know that upsets some of you but when its like that I feel that its necessary.
Anyway these assignments arnt going to finish themselves, sorry for a boring post...
P.s. mum had her operation today and shes fine
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4 comments:

  1. NinahMay 6, 2010 at 7:24 AM

    i had to smile reading both your scenarios. its boring to say this.. but for me it is EXACTLY the same. especially when i wanna take a pic of my body... looks okay in the mirror but on the cam.. disgusting.

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  2. KellyMay 6, 2010 at 10:11 AM

    know the feeling - it's terrible isn't it?

    glad your mom is ok

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  3. .May 6, 2010 at 11:13 AM

    i know the party scenario!
    but the one i despise most is the "i feel great in my bikini these holidays!" ---> facebook ---> "ohmuhgosh do i look that fat???" scenario! haha...hope this doesn't happen this summer.

    gonna reply to your email as soon as i have more time
    <3

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  4. AnonymousMay 6, 2010 at 9:46 PM

    Gosh I know, it's like if the camera adds ten pounds then how many f***ing cameras are ON me?? Super glad to hear your mum's alright after her op :)

    LOL I just went to publish this comment and the word verification gave me 'faack.' I couldn't agree more.

    Lots of love,
    Adeline xx

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